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A Dance with Mammon – Part 4 – Destruction and Annihilation

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Empires in the Sand

 

The path moves on
The path moves on

The initial foundation was rocky.  I knew it was.  There were elements of my old self that still held and bound me to a place.  Fears, inner fears from my time being bullied as a child that kept me down and I had manifested the situation that seemed to enforce that.  It was like a vicious cycle that I could not break out of.  It kept happening and it was frustrating me.  The cycles they just kept getting worse and more and more destructive.  I was in a downward spiral and I could not stop it.

My first mentor told me that he was so proud of me and I did not want to let him down.  I remember feeling the blocks and pushing through them.  He told me that I had to be careful who I let in my energies.  We did not talk as much has we used to as he had things in his life that he was dealing with.  But I was always happy to hear his wisdom and knowledge when we did talk. In the end though, this chapter was about me. About me rising and claiming the energies and stepping out of the shadows and breaking all these binds.   I realized in that moment I was moving into a new chapter, I had to rise up and step into a new level of myself.  I knew it was coming and the old strings were breaking and snapping.

They held me strong and I remember the times I fought with them, the trials and the challenges that I faced.  It was brutal, it was painful and it was devastating. I thought the last challenge was hard but this one was in a way even worse.  And it was of my own creation. It was also the foundation of everything I wanted to create. I was learning every step of the way but I was also being beaten down. I was learning to rise up but there were pieces in myself that kept me down and they were manifesting around me.  I remember my Mentor speaking about manifesting and how it can be a reflection of what was within. I looked around and realized I had a lot of work to do.  My insides were a mess and that was becoming VERY apparent.

I admit during this time I sank again. I trusted the wrong people, I let in the wrong energies and I witnessed firsthand how damaging that can be.  I walked through the abyss, teetering on the brink of the void.  It was so frustrating.  I could not get a grasp of what I needed and though this beautiful creation was before me, at times it became a beast that threatened to swallow me whole.  I realized that it was my own energies that were threatening to swallow me whole.

 

What had I done…..

Mammon : Well look what you are working with. You have to remove a lot of things but you brought in terrible energies, why did you do that?  Do not mention this to anyone until it is time but this has to change. I know that right now you are riddled with pregnancy hormones and they are adding a layer of complexity to this, but for now allow yourself to heal, I will help you shift this and I will help you free yourself of these energies but you will have to trust me. 

Me : I trust you Mammon, everything you have said will happen, has.

 

I clung to him, he was my salvation. I was having so many emotional challenges that I was facing and it was his words and his lessons that I clung to.  It was him that was stable and I knew what he wanted me to do.  I knew what I had to do, but I was not sure if I could do it.

 

Mammon : You need a better foundation for this empire. Right now this is a foundation of sand and it is going to crumble and be sucked into the abyss.  You need to remember what you learned and you need to listen to your instinct. You are seeing things and you know that those working with you do not share this vision, your path is different.  You will be branching out and you will be moving in a different direction.  You need to be in a creative space and right now you are in a very destructive space.  This is because the energies inside of you that are being released have been creating this situation and you need to challenge this.  You need to rise above it and you need to change the course that is being laid before you.  This will continue to manifest until you change this.  Until you change, the energies within this situation will keep manifesting.  I will help you though. I will show you how to do this but until you do, your foundation is going to crack and eventually shatter.

 

Oh gods, do I remember the first time that happened.  I remember when the first crack in the foundation appeared.  It was devastating and It really affected and destroyed me.  The ripples from it actually only released and cleared this year.  It took 5 years for me to clear that crack and repair what happened there.  Healing deep shadows is not something that happens over night. It can indeed happen fast, but sometimes it needs to work through the layers and come out layer by layer.  Sometimes you will attract things to you that are similar, and the situations will repeat over and over and over again.

When it happened it was like half the empire fell and sank into the ground and I was sitting there holding it up with my hands. Sobbing and bleeding as I was losing to the massive weight of the structure before me.  I held out as long as I could.. 

 

What would you tell Atlas… To Shrug…

NO!! Just NO!! MAMMON YOU STOP THAT!! 

I fought and I fought and I fought, I needed to hold this together. This was my dream, this was my passion…

This is killing you… just stop…

NO!! 

 

I screamed in the darkness but my problems were getting worse and worse and the weight was becoming unbearable.  I was tortured during this time. I was abused in different ways and it was not by the demons, it was from elements of my own creation.  My damned mind seemed ever intent on self-cannibalizing itself! Oh how my mutilation demons took delight in what I was doing and made sure they pointed it out.  Mammon was relentless in his lessons and he had no problem telling me what I had to do.

These are just elements that you need to remove..

 

I DON’T KNOW HOW!!

That is because you are still a prisoner… 

 

You are Still a Prisoner.

 

He was right, I was a prisoner. I fought with myself and I couldn’t break the chains.  It was like a vicious cycle.  It kept happening and it was driving me insane! I could not take more of these cracks.  It was like like trying to keep back a dam that was cracking, I was racing against time and racing against the water as it pushed onward.  The problem was, I was fighting against something that was effortless and natural.   All my efforts were in vain.

Mammon : It will happen until you break it. When something keeps happening over and over again it is because you have not learned the lesson, so you keep repeating it looking for something different, looking to change it.  You have to break out of this cycle and you have to be the one to change it. And yes it is going to hurt, but you have to make this change in you.  You are in the energy that created this problem and you need to change your focus and change what you would do.  You need to shift to a new perspective, this ability if something that is inside of you.

Me:  it is people around me, what the hell am I doing wrong?! This is external!

Mammon : That is the illusion, this is internal. This is a prison of your own mind and your own inner energies are creating this. These people are crossing your path because you have their vibrations locked away in you and you need to challenge it and you need to realize what is causing this.  Look inside of you, look at the patterns. True transformation comes from within.  The answer is within.  Look where it comes from and look what started it. 

My prison was the bullies again, somewhere in my mind I thought I deserved it.  I thought I deserved to be treated that way. In the dark shadows of my mind I felt that this was just.  I felt like I had to bend and cave to this, so I did.  I let myself fall into line instead of standing up… why did I do that… 

That perplexed me. What was I so afraid of? Where was this horrible fear? What was this? Why did I stay down until I snapped?  When I snapped it was usually ugly, but getting to that point, why did it take me so long… What was this?  He was right, this pattern had repeated too much, I was a prisoner in my own mind.  My mind was out of control with scenarios and how the hell I was going to do this…. 

Mammon : The only way you will change it is to do what you would not do, break the pattern. Do something different and release yourself from this.  That is the only way you will succeed.  You have to look at what you have done and do what terrifies you. Do what scares you and what will take you to where you want to go.  Ask yourself, what do you want?

 

I said it out loud. I told him what I wanted, I told him exactly what I wanted.  I laid in out in as much detail as I could.  I wanted to be free of this.  I wanted the means to release and let go of the broken foundation and remove the pieces that were causing the cracks.  I wanted to then build a strong and solid foundation.  I sobbed as I told him, I knew what I wanted. I knew what I had to do, I knew what I wanted.

 

Mammon : Get as clear as you can. The clearer you are, the easier this will be.  You have to be clear with this and you have to know what you want and go for it no matter what happens.  I will help you make it happen. I will show you what you need to do.

Me : Yes Mammon.. this is exactly what I want.

 

Be Careful What you Wish for.

Strong Roots
Strong Roots

Yes, I wished for it, I wished for it all.  Mammon sat with me.  He would sit with me for hours and he was much more gentle with me this time.  We talked and talked and planned.  He told me things that I needed to hear and he helped me to break out of where I was.  I remember I asked, and I kept asking.  I needed to be sure this was the way.  I hate sometimes how analytical I am, it slows me down but it has also helped me to navigate situations and find the best course.  Though ok sometimes the best course keeps you pinned where you are and you have to do something bold and outlandish to break free.  This is what I was resisting.  Why did I have to do this!!??

Azazel joined in at times and I remember the talks with Azazel.  He told me things, he told me things that I had to do.  He told me what I would have to do in order to make the changes.  My own abilities were the very thing keeping me hostage.

 

Azazel : I will be with you through all of this.  Trust what you know in your heart. There is going to be a lot of lies and a lot of false information spread. You have to trust what is in your heart and what you know to be true.  When you are breaking out like this, you have to listen to us and the light within. You cannot listen to the voices and whispers around you.  Know what I am telling you and know that we will get you through this.  Breaking and changing your internal mental conditioning is not easy, but we are here to guide you and we are here to help you through it.   You have to stop thinking and just do. You have to accept the consequences of what is to come and you have to rise above everything that is going to happen.  I will be here with you through it all.

They guided me but they also made sure to that I promised him to keep an element of secrecy to this all at this time. I had a date picked. I knew the date I was going to do it.  I had to, for these were personal and they were sacred.  Speaking about them now I can release them, but at the time the wounds were dragging me under and I needed to release them.  The plans we made ,the strategies planned, it was very carefully made but I think I knew in my heart how badly it was going to shake everything, how it was going to change absolutely everything about me and the course of my life..

At this point Satan was also a huge influence in my life.  He was one who assisted me with the shadow work I so desperately needed.  I had a lot that needed to be shifted. 

 

Satan : When you are walking here, never lose track of your focus and never lose track of your own vision.  Walk through it and hold true to where you are going.  Stay focused,  know what you want and we will take you there.  Though the turbulence, through the storms, through the disasters, we will guide you.  The darkness is beautiful and it is a great teacher. It will teach you and it will test you.  I will show you the way through this.  Faith in where you want to go, believing that you can get there, continuing to take the action no matter what is said to you and no matter how others try to shift you away, that is essential.  The drive, the determination, the will to go forward, the will to do the work, the will to push through and see this through to the end.  Focus on your growth, focus on your work, your work with us. Focus on what you have to do and what needs to happen for your goals to come true.  The stronger your faith is in us, the more we can influence what happens and the more we can bring it to life.  Transform and release what holds you back, let it go and go towards what you desire.  Go towards what you want and don’t listen to anyone who tells you that you can’t.

 

We planned and planned and planned. That is the thing about planning, eventually you have to act. Planning only takes you so far, talking will only take you to far… there comes a time where you just have to act.  Action is the only thing that creates results. Action is the only thing that takes you forward.

 I don’t think anyone will ever realize just what the demons did.  I don’t even know the full extent and I have been told I will not know fully until I die.  I am just so grateful and happy they were there for me.  I needed the support and I needed the guidance and it was there.  They never once left my side and everything that they said would happen, came to fruition.  The times were hard and challenging but looking back on it, the whole experience strengthened my faith in them. It also showed me just how amazing they are and just how amazing I am.

I was tested though.  What came next tested every part of me.  It tested every part of my being and tested every part of my soul.  I looked at the void before me and I jumped.

I jumped and I trusted. I trusted in them and I let the void tear me to shreds.

To be continued….here

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8 thoughts on “A Dance with Mammon – Part 4 – Destruction and Annihilation

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    • Akelta

      Glad you enjoyed it ^_^

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  • Joy Atidaa

    Wow that’s so great of them, I really want to work with Mammon

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