Aprophis wrote:But all the energies, no matter if personal or not have a limitless source. That's where I tried tapping in. Into the yet unrealized unlimited potential. Unrealized because I'm not (yet) limitless as a human being. Well, maybe I am, maybe we all are and don't know it.
Ahhh... that makes perfect sense.
Next time we're both in chat I'd love to have a look at it and see what you've done. Maybe I can make one similar with my Desire Demon.
Aprophis wrote:Well, depending on the definitions of the spectrum, I'd fall on the lighter end. But so would 90% of the people I know, so........yeah. I think some definitions are kept too general for my taste.
I sort of agree with this - but the tests for autism are based on a numerical value - to even FALL on the spectrum you have to meet criteria, and each symptom is ranked by severity of expression. Those rankings are then calculated to determine where you fall on that spectrum - if your number is below a certain range (and I don't know what the range is, because while I got a diagnosis of being on the spectrum and requiring assistance, I was so overwhelmed by the whole experience - new doctors, new city, new environments, new services - that I totally shut down and haven't been able to research it afterwards because it brings up the memories and I start to panic), then you don't qualify as being on the spectrum even if you are.
Essentially everyone in the world is a little bit autistic - they're also a little schizo, a little bipolar, a little of every mental illness. The true definition of mental illness, therefore, is not whether you have symptoms, but whether or not those symptoms seriously affect your quality of life and your ability to function in society.
Aprophis wrote:it had more to do with generally being a loner and never getting used to touch. But that was more in my teens and above.
I think a lot of American men have this experience - once you hit your teens, any touch that isn't sexual is treated as sexual anyway, and touch in general outside of sex is strongly discouraged. Being a loner would have exacerbated this problem. A LOT of men are touch-starved by the time they're full adults, and humans who are touch starved get really quirky.
We know that touch starvation is an actual thing... babies who never get touched DIE from it. So... while you may not be aware of being touch starved (most men from this culture aren't aware of it even being a thing), touch starvation absolutely can affect your moods - people (and women do get touch starved too) become more prone to stress-related symptomology, they become depressed, they have anxieties, they develop weird phobias, interesting tics, misplaced aggression... the worse your touch starvation the stranger you get and the more complex your symptomology.
Not saying that you exhibit any of this, but it's something to be aware of, just generally.
Not getting enough hugs literally makes people physically and mentally ill. They've also proven that GETTING hugs lowers your blood pressure, releases endorphins which lighten your mood, relax your muscles, reduces toxins, and all sorts of other good stuff.
Something to think about, at any rate.
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