Self Responsibility as a Stepping Stone
Posted: Tue Oct 17, 2017 6:39 am
On any path, but especially as demonosophers, we should keep in mind that there is a key foundation of character that determines whether we progress or our path or whether we continue cycling through manipulative games, showmanship, egoic mental masturbation, and adolescent acts of rebellion. In all cases, let us have the courage to look honestly at ourselves and where we are, to move through the following post with a mirror turned inwards instead of a finger pointed outwards at some source of blame. The demons remind us that we must take responsibility, they they are not here to lessen the blow of this life but to show us how to move through it in our best interest. Life and development is not something to hide from, to cower from, to shrink from when it graces the rawness of our delicate skins, it is something to be embraced fully in all of its horrifying dimensions no matter what places or states of mind it takes us to. Demons will not hide you from this, and though they will be the ones who lead you out of the dark, they will also lead you into it when it is necessary.
What I don't like to see, and I really don't like it, are the games...and I'm not talking about cutesy little forms of hide and seek where all is well and good and fun, I am talking about the games that involve deceit, sometimes known, sometimes unknown, that incorporate and pull the demons into these webs to be used as pawns of manipulation. First of all--they are independent beings, their agenda does not revolve around you and all that this forum brings forth to you, they have a much wider grasp of reality, one not limited by the boundaries we, as humans, willingly erect. Show some humility towards them. Do not treat them like beings of servitude.
And you may shrink back in horror when someone even mentions such a thing, 'BLASTING RODS? NEVER!!!' but you don't realize the many ways in which you, psychologically, are holding them, or what they have the potential to be to you, hostage to your internal constructs. And this is why, anyone who walks this path...if they seek to move forwards, must have the ability to move into the realm of shadow work. This is not said to scare you, it is just a matter of growing up, becoming psychologically well rounded, and maturing into an adult. If that is not something you are interested in doing I suggest you retreat to whatever psycho-adolescent community you can find and prepare to live a life shelled in by your own shit. And this is not being harsh, this is being honest. We need not be afraid of truths, they push us deeper into ourselves. It is a process we must learn to embrace.
They are not your toys, they are not your ego adornments, they are not your measures of power. No matter how many you end up connecting with, if you refuse to do the work they offer you and to grow as a person you will remain as you have been, as you always have been. There are no shortcuts, there are elegant ways (when you release control), but there are never shortcuts. I do not appreciate seeing their essence reduced to something like a decoration for what you make your path out to be.
All of these are stories, that's all we can ever share on a forum, that's the only manner in which we can connect… Stories that we thread piece by piece, weaving our own fantasy of identity, and status, and path ever deeper into it all. Stories can be manipulated, stories can be blown out of proportion and distorted to unintelligible degrees. That is not the demons. And they will not save you from self destruction, or making an ass of yourself, if it is meant to teach you a lesson. Lessons are not simple, they are painful, grueling, and arduous. Don’t try to make yourself appear as anything but that which you are, and that which you are in the process of becoming, especially when it involves ‘incorporating’ the demons. I want to see the shit, the blood, the mess, I don't want to see perfect stories of marital bliss and happy happy good times that make you out to be amazing and special. I want to know that there is something powerfully raw stitching it all together, that you are growing as a person, even despite the pains.
And no, that will not always be the focus, we live our paths in balance. But to act as if you are free from such work, free from such introspection because you have X amount of demons on your side 'doing the work for you', is painting an illusion. The LHP as a whole is about cutting through illusions, do not expect it to last for long. Bubbles will be burst and stories, woven with such intricate care and attention to detail, will be burned to ashes to start anew. There is no need to be so hung up on the images you project, we are ever changing, dynamically moving through the fabric that our lives present us with, in a constant colorful flux. Own up to your shit and let yourself be transformed, or else continue to parade yourself as a fool, a jack ass, bearing your backside while bent over in complete ignorance as to the fact. But you feel the breeze don't you? You know it's there, but if you continue to stay bent over like that, in fear of acknowledging the truth, you'll never be able to pull up your pants. And....you see our problem with that.
I am sure many of you are familiar with the story of King Midas, he who thought it wise to have everything he touched turn to gold, to completely disregard that with constant gratification there is only death, that we need the polarities of dark and light, gold and mundane, in order to survive upon this plane. Now, what happens we take this anecdote and substitute gold with the gratification we get from 'having' demons? We just want more and more and more and more, until we are left starving in our own spiritual waste, not realizing that the sustenance was to be found in the work they could point us to and not in them themselves. And the shadow is continually neglected if we live in this castle of self importance, erected by false beliefs of 'chosenhood', 'specialness', etc, etc.
We forget that we have a role to play in this as well. They are not here to take care of us, to baby us into thinking we can have everything we want without lifting a finger, to cater to all of our false pretenses, to encourage our ignorance. No. That is not why they join us here. Oftentimes they want to help us overcome these bindings that limit us, but that can only occur through conscious collaboration, they will never push us into anything we are not ready for but you best believe there will be blood, sweat, and tears when called for. And that is not harsh, that is helpful, that is gracious, that is the way of the demonic divine. You want to play in darkness you must know that it has standards, systems, rules of executing it's directives....this is not chaos for the sake of chaos, it is an expertly articulated plan of strategy that looks far beyond our limited scope of perception into the grand web of things and takes into account all those minute fibers that must be addressed. You are not, and never will be, so big that you can do that all on your own, so do not try to speak for them...injecting human laden insights into the excuses you make up for yourself.
Humility is important. Respect is important. Realizing that your ego will get in the way, that this is only natural and human not something to beat yourself up for, and will come between you and the actual exchange many times. We can only realize our mistakes and move forward from here. Getting upset and brooding is not the way to go, holding onto grudges and continually blaming your own shortcomings on outside forces is not the way to go. You see, with the unseen that becomes reeeeallly easy, which is why we need to take into account all the necessary discernment needed to navigate a path like this. Self responsibility is most important. Just because you work with demons this does not grant you the freedom to do as you please, to be ensconced in a protective bubble free from acknowledging your own shit. In any case they will be the ones who...yes, tenderly...make you aware of the shit, through whatever source or trigger is necessary. This path is not meant to breed self entitlement and feeling as if you are free from owning up because you have 'guides' who will do it for you. That is anathema to everything this stands for.
And please, please, please be mindful of what you are projecting onto the demons. Some of it is very offensive to them, or otherwise just... not appealing. To their nature. ... They are sentient beings who exist outside of your conceptions of them, they don't need to do adhere to your fantasies or please and tickle your every desire.
Know where you come from, see through your bullshit. Have respect for those who have walked this path for a long time. Do not confuse sitting on a path stagnated by your own crusty illusions to walking the path and doing the work it takes to move forward, no matter how grueling. Understand your place, and realize you are not stuck there should you choose to change. It is in your hands, not your companions.
What I don't like to see, and I really don't like it, are the games...and I'm not talking about cutesy little forms of hide and seek where all is well and good and fun, I am talking about the games that involve deceit, sometimes known, sometimes unknown, that incorporate and pull the demons into these webs to be used as pawns of manipulation. First of all--they are independent beings, their agenda does not revolve around you and all that this forum brings forth to you, they have a much wider grasp of reality, one not limited by the boundaries we, as humans, willingly erect. Show some humility towards them. Do not treat them like beings of servitude.
And you may shrink back in horror when someone even mentions such a thing, 'BLASTING RODS? NEVER!!!' but you don't realize the many ways in which you, psychologically, are holding them, or what they have the potential to be to you, hostage to your internal constructs. And this is why, anyone who walks this path...if they seek to move forwards, must have the ability to move into the realm of shadow work. This is not said to scare you, it is just a matter of growing up, becoming psychologically well rounded, and maturing into an adult. If that is not something you are interested in doing I suggest you retreat to whatever psycho-adolescent community you can find and prepare to live a life shelled in by your own shit. And this is not being harsh, this is being honest. We need not be afraid of truths, they push us deeper into ourselves. It is a process we must learn to embrace.
They are not your toys, they are not your ego adornments, they are not your measures of power. No matter how many you end up connecting with, if you refuse to do the work they offer you and to grow as a person you will remain as you have been, as you always have been. There are no shortcuts, there are elegant ways (when you release control), but there are never shortcuts. I do not appreciate seeing their essence reduced to something like a decoration for what you make your path out to be.
All of these are stories, that's all we can ever share on a forum, that's the only manner in which we can connect… Stories that we thread piece by piece, weaving our own fantasy of identity, and status, and path ever deeper into it all. Stories can be manipulated, stories can be blown out of proportion and distorted to unintelligible degrees. That is not the demons. And they will not save you from self destruction, or making an ass of yourself, if it is meant to teach you a lesson. Lessons are not simple, they are painful, grueling, and arduous. Don’t try to make yourself appear as anything but that which you are, and that which you are in the process of becoming, especially when it involves ‘incorporating’ the demons. I want to see the shit, the blood, the mess, I don't want to see perfect stories of marital bliss and happy happy good times that make you out to be amazing and special. I want to know that there is something powerfully raw stitching it all together, that you are growing as a person, even despite the pains.
And no, that will not always be the focus, we live our paths in balance. But to act as if you are free from such work, free from such introspection because you have X amount of demons on your side 'doing the work for you', is painting an illusion. The LHP as a whole is about cutting through illusions, do not expect it to last for long. Bubbles will be burst and stories, woven with such intricate care and attention to detail, will be burned to ashes to start anew. There is no need to be so hung up on the images you project, we are ever changing, dynamically moving through the fabric that our lives present us with, in a constant colorful flux. Own up to your shit and let yourself be transformed, or else continue to parade yourself as a fool, a jack ass, bearing your backside while bent over in complete ignorance as to the fact. But you feel the breeze don't you? You know it's there, but if you continue to stay bent over like that, in fear of acknowledging the truth, you'll never be able to pull up your pants. And....you see our problem with that.
I am sure many of you are familiar with the story of King Midas, he who thought it wise to have everything he touched turn to gold, to completely disregard that with constant gratification there is only death, that we need the polarities of dark and light, gold and mundane, in order to survive upon this plane. Now, what happens we take this anecdote and substitute gold with the gratification we get from 'having' demons? We just want more and more and more and more, until we are left starving in our own spiritual waste, not realizing that the sustenance was to be found in the work they could point us to and not in them themselves. And the shadow is continually neglected if we live in this castle of self importance, erected by false beliefs of 'chosenhood', 'specialness', etc, etc.
We forget that we have a role to play in this as well. They are not here to take care of us, to baby us into thinking we can have everything we want without lifting a finger, to cater to all of our false pretenses, to encourage our ignorance. No. That is not why they join us here. Oftentimes they want to help us overcome these bindings that limit us, but that can only occur through conscious collaboration, they will never push us into anything we are not ready for but you best believe there will be blood, sweat, and tears when called for. And that is not harsh, that is helpful, that is gracious, that is the way of the demonic divine. You want to play in darkness you must know that it has standards, systems, rules of executing it's directives....this is not chaos for the sake of chaos, it is an expertly articulated plan of strategy that looks far beyond our limited scope of perception into the grand web of things and takes into account all those minute fibers that must be addressed. You are not, and never will be, so big that you can do that all on your own, so do not try to speak for them...injecting human laden insights into the excuses you make up for yourself.
Humility is important. Respect is important. Realizing that your ego will get in the way, that this is only natural and human not something to beat yourself up for, and will come between you and the actual exchange many times. We can only realize our mistakes and move forward from here. Getting upset and brooding is not the way to go, holding onto grudges and continually blaming your own shortcomings on outside forces is not the way to go. You see, with the unseen that becomes reeeeallly easy, which is why we need to take into account all the necessary discernment needed to navigate a path like this. Self responsibility is most important. Just because you work with demons this does not grant you the freedom to do as you please, to be ensconced in a protective bubble free from acknowledging your own shit. In any case they will be the ones who...yes, tenderly...make you aware of the shit, through whatever source or trigger is necessary. This path is not meant to breed self entitlement and feeling as if you are free from owning up because you have 'guides' who will do it for you. That is anathema to everything this stands for.
And please, please, please be mindful of what you are projecting onto the demons. Some of it is very offensive to them, or otherwise just... not appealing. To their nature. ... They are sentient beings who exist outside of your conceptions of them, they don't need to do adhere to your fantasies or please and tickle your every desire.
Know where you come from, see through your bullshit. Have respect for those who have walked this path for a long time. Do not confuse sitting on a path stagnated by your own crusty illusions to walking the path and doing the work it takes to move forward, no matter how grueling. Understand your place, and realize you are not stuck there should you choose to change. It is in your hands, not your companions.