Satan and Suns

I posted this in the wrong place the first time; so, it's not intended to be a double post, just a correction.

At first, I really couldn't think of anything to celebrate about me.
But then....

Things started coming
I have broken through the bonds of conformity that society places upon me to find who I truly am
I celebrate the beauty all around me and work to create more for all to enjoy
Once I got started, I just kept finding more and more about Me to celebrate

Then the Dark Sun energy activated and became what I can only describe as a golden-black vest that combines the limitless radiant energy with the infinite potential of the Void

I arrive as myself- my golden divinity dressed in gold and looking like a queen. while I am sat @ the table my pov shifts—

-and I am watching myself sitting at the table with everyone, smiling, enjoying the festivities.
I am a gorgeous leopardess who stands by me, never leaving my side, watching me. I sense my awareness within hers as I observe myself. We never take our eyes off each other. Primal divine, golden divinity: One.

She is utterly gorgeous— my primal divine, I am calm, composed, quietly observing everything & enjoying the feast . I am the primal divine, a divine of golden darkness & I am One, Me, and I celebrate myself.

My day began with a mini panic attack about Lord Belphegore. A need to Know he selected to work with me in 2026 for the Inner Sanctuary Daily Challenge. I found myself rushing to my notes to check, because I couldn't recall. And...was hugely relieved to see his name on my list! ....for December...& there are two Dark Lords that month versus just one. Yet, the relief was real & the curiosity about my own behavior mounting.

Funny to not know the self. Both funny as in Haha & funny as in Peculiar.

I mention all this because I invited him to join me for this meditation! I felt strongly that he was asking to join. This is not the first time. He materialized suddenly within one of the Underworld Caravan meditations (the Labyrinth) & he's been on my mind ever since.

We jumped right in and arrived at the Noble Realm, beautiful and breathtaking. So very lovely and also quite dark. Yet, the festive lights led the way and we rapidly were at the castle.

I could feel the Demoness' arm looped through my own and felt very calm and special. We walked down a long corridor and then entered the banquet hall. I could see fat rippled through the meats (yum!) & saw so many more foods in lovely array all over the huge table. I sit down and listen to the conversations. It's fun to hear demons speaking about their strengths and skills! Pride and gratitude are in the air!

Lord Belphegore is there, at my left side. Some of my companions are also there & I really feel so special. This is honestly perfect timing because I am able to hone in on my accomplishments for the year without stress or false bravado. I am grateful for a few things. One is my writing skill, which is subjective of course! I'm quite positive not everyone would agree, however I know in my bone marrow that I do have skill and I have put that skill to good use during the year. The other accomplishment is having insight into many different subjects. Instead of experiencing isolation, I have pride and gratitude for this skill. Oftentimes, being insightful causes rifts and separation. It's so nice to not negatively judge myself here.

The fact that I'm with powerful Demon/esses does not escape me. I include this in my accomplishments for the year because I am able to pierce the veil, travel to the spiritual spaces, and receive information. This is definitely a skill that I've worked on faithfully all year.

Everything is wrapping up and I am ready to go and quite content to stay. Another skill floats to the surface, but I didn't consider it until right now. It's my inner warrior. They watch with constancy and notice shifts in energies. Dangers are largely known ahead of time, which means they can be avoided or neutralized. Working graveyard shift at a truck stop & having the primary interest in being outdoors - primal alertness is key. I feel well pleased to have worked so hard and gained such progress with this skillset!

The time comes to leave and Lord Belphegore adds his pile of gold to the table....

This is a strange Meditation because I am from my True Selves a Dark Demonic True Self and a White Angelic Self, it means I have to serve in humility
My Outfit was golden, corsage dress, juvelry, tiara and mask
I loved the special brewed beer with strawberries and fried vegetables
I said I am a Black Flame Adept and learn to heal with this