Satan and Suns

The stage manager was calling to me before I even started the meditation.

you can exclude me from the raffle for the horse, I do not feel a connection to horses.

Reading the list of essences, there was a bit of each that I could see in me. Though Stage Manager is more what I am in real life. I went into the meditation being drawn to three in particular: Performer, Jester, Seer. At the end of the meditation and drawing the card. . . I did know. . . and I did smile. . .

My Carnivale Essence is the Jester.

Mine was doll.

I for sure thought I was going to be the stage manager, but what was revealed to me was the seer. Someone mentioned seeing a talking skull, I did as well it just wasn't talking while I was there.

I saw two....The Aerialist: The Seer...hum...........I read the description, I feel both suits me...

I am an acrobat!
I already felt pulled to it before doing the meditation but it was nice to get a confirmation through this meditation, and Z was there to walk with me through the carnival ^^

I am the doll! It's honestly quite hilarious because when I looked at them before the meditation I was like, "Okay, I am clearly either The Jester, The Performer or the doll but I am not sure yet."


I have had Inamorato by my side throughout the entire carnival and I could tell he knew what I was, aand I guess I kind of did as well..needlessly to say we both were walking out with grins when I found out

The Jester. I had to do this a few times before I was sure--it's far from the only one I resonate with!

Contourist is what I heard from the talisman and Ventriliquist from the cards
Both seem about right

Something to add to my experience with this meditation that I only just discovered today: The card that she showed me was the two of swords. I didn't know what it was during the meditation, because I barely knew anything about tarot cards (and I still barely know anything about them, lol) and just focused on the V shape made by the swords, trying to interpret that.

The description that I found is:
"Two of Swords
Where to go when both directions are risky and still haste is called for? You must decide although you can't be sure.
Archetype
Crossroads."

This is apt because I did make a decision in that meditation, actually, that may have altered or directed myself. I had exactly 2 choices, and very little time to think about it. I am now comfortable with the result and happy with my choice.