{"id":1153,"date":"2018-07-23T16:16:50","date_gmt":"2018-07-23T16:16:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/satanandsuns.com\/blog\/?p=1153"},"modified":"2024-02-10T23:28:58","modified_gmt":"2024-02-10T23:28:58","slug":"a-camel-ride-with-paimon-the-desert-walk","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/satanandsuns.com\/blog\/a-camel-ride-with-paimon-the-desert-walk\/","title":{"rendered":"A Camel Ride with Paimon\u00a0\u00a0– The Desert Walk"},"content":{"rendered":"

The Desert of Gold<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\"The
The Desert<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

I really wonder how I find myself back in the desert, this was a different desert though\u2026 The one I meet Azazel in is past the black sand dunes.. The desert is connected to my soul in a way.\u00a0\u00a0There is a deep connection to it.\u00a0\u00a0My higher self has a profound connection to it and one that moves through the ages of time and space and I always find myself drawn to those who have connections to the desert.\u00a0\u00a0Paimon being one of them.<\/p>\n

This desert is golden and shimmers like a realm befitting a king would.\u00a0\u00a0I always find it interesting how I can feel such deep sensations in the Astral\u2026 the sun was beating down on me, I could smell the spices of the desert enticing my olfactory senses and the heat of the golden sun above bore down on me.\u00a0\u00a0I loved the warmth.\u00a0\u00a0It was healing and soothing, it was something that I felt that I needed in my soul.<\/p>\n

The road to empowerment and awakening your self leads you to many places.\u00a0\u00a0I love the journey of the shadow and really opening myself up and seeing what comes.\u00a0\u00a0Every time I have overcome a block, I have been able to create more of what I desire.\u00a0\u00a0It is important to remove the blocks and the emotional traps that we have created in our minds.\u00a0\u00a0Our emotions can be an amazing guide to these mind traps and can help us to release and free them, but they can also imprison us and bind us to their will.\u00a0\u00a0I have been following them and I have noticed that the more I release and let go, of the easier it is to manifest and create.\u00a0\u00a0The next journey I was called to walk was with Paimon.\u00a0\u00a0I was called to learn from him and to release the next block that was holding me back.<\/p>\n

This block\u2026 this block was one that I knew I needed to overcome.\u00a0\u00a0Confidence\u2026 Confidence in myself.\u00a0\u00a0It always came back to confidence.<\/p>\n

As I walked through the desert it mirrored mirages at me..<\/p>\n

That awkward little girl who had a hard time interacting with the other kids, who was bullied and made fun of, who when asked to even answer a questions in class would shake\u2026<\/p>\n

Then I saw my first interview I did\u2026 I was shaking for it and thought it was surely going to be revealed in my voice.\u00a0\u00a0My tone was perfect\u2026<\/p>\n

Then I saw the last interview\u2026 how far I had come.. how far would I go\u2026<\/p>\n

I could talk in front of people now. I could do interviews and defend myself and my points against trolls and critics.\u00a0\u00a0I felt confident in my abilities and in my skills.\u00a0\u00a0But I still had a ways to go.\u00a0\u00a0I had to embrace myself,\u00a0\u00a0believe in myself, have faith in myself fully and really step into who I am.\u00a0\u00a0I need to be comfortable completely in my skin and that was why I was here, that is why he called me to work with him.\u00a0\u00a0This is one of the fundamental areas of success,\u00a0\u00a0having that confidence and being in your power.\u00a0\u00a0I wanted to embrace it fully and really feel who I am.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0There was a new level I was ready to attain and this was it.<\/p>\n

I still have moments where I am scared, moments where I wonder how much of myself I should expose.\u00a0\u00a0I know that success comes for those who are brave and bold.\u00a0\u00a0Those who just do it. They get out there and they let nothing hold them back.\u00a0\u00a0I am close, so close.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0What still holds me back?\u00a0\u00a0I knew Paimon could help me.\u00a0\u00a0He had told me during one of my sessions with him. This particular block he had the remedy for and he would be able to help me to heal it.\u00a0\u00a0I left my body for his realm.<\/p>\n

The desert feels like home to me.\u00a0\u00a0There is such an empowered and healing element to it.\u00a0\u00a0It is like it will strip you bare and remove all your masks, exposing the inner soul of the self.\u00a0\u00a0I feel like I can get lost here, I feel like I can forget here and just for a moment step away from it all.\u00a0\u00a0Oh how I missed the desert.\u00a0\u00a0I feel like I can be myself here. The desert is the place of demons and where I meet them.<\/p>\n

This Desert was unique.\u00a0\u00a0It was golden, the energies were vibrant and alive.\u00a0\u00a0There were sounds, music playing, the air was filled with spices.\u00a0\u00a0It was absolutely glorious.\u00a0\u00a0I walked and I felt the healing wave of heat that comes from my connection to the desert.\u00a0\u00a0The visuals of this desert were incredible and it was something that was absolutely amazing.\u00a0\u00a0I remember how everything melted away and I felt whole and at peace.\u00a0\u00a0The energies of my soul awakened and I just surrendered to the beauty that was all around me.<\/p>\n

The House of Paimon<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

I saw it on the horizon and I walked towards it.\u00a0\u00a0His Palace is grande and incredible.\u00a0\u00a0Massive structures, balconies, the architecture is amazing.\u00a0\u00a0I admired it and took a moment to savour it.\u00a0\u00a0I enjoy my visits with him.\u00a0\u00a0He is full of wisdom and guidance.\u00a0\u00a0I walked to the gates, the guards were there.\u00a0\u00a0They looked at me.\u00a0\u00a0They knew I was coming and that I had been invited to visit with him.\u00a0\u00a0They nodded at me as I crossed through the gates and walked down the path.\u00a0\u00a0There was music, the music of his palace was always surreal and divine.\u00a0\u00a0I love the sounds, the composers of this place are gifted beyond belief.\u00a0\u00a0The art on the walls is equally incredible.\u00a0\u00a0I took a moment to admire them.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0I love to look at the art done by demons, there is such a depth to it. I can see why they inspire so many people here and why the art that rises from the darkness is so complex and beautiful.<\/p>\n

His Palace is gorgeous and honesty I love visiting there.\u00a0\u00a0There is something so healing about the energies of this place.\u00a0\u00a0I have been here a few times and there are many familiar settings here.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0I continued walking down the grand hall.\u00a0\u00a0I was heading to where he was.\u00a0\u00a0I knew he was in the throne room and that is where I would meet him.<\/p>\n

I approached the throne room and saw him sitting here.\u00a0\u00a0He always looks so proud and majestic.\u00a0\u00a0I approached the throne and kneeled before it, \u201cKing Paimon.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

He chuckled and told me to rise, \u201c There is no need for that.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

I have a habit of continuing the pleasantries, though I know that many of them, especially the ones that I have worked with for a long time, are amused by it.\u00a0\u00a0In fact they are all incredibly amused by it.\u00a0\u00a0I rose and looked at him.<\/p>\n

\u201cI have a little bit of a problem.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Paimon :<\/strong> “I would say it is more than a little bit of a problem.\u00a0\u00a0It is something that is blocking you from this goal that you have set for yourself.\u00a0\u00a0You know what you have to do.\u00a0\u00a0It is this same old patterns again, it has been with you since you were a little girl.\u00a0\u00a0Most of the biggest hindrances of your life will be traced to things that happened here to you when you were young.\u00a0\u00a0In fact it can be something incredibly simple.\u00a0\u00a0It is amazing how the most simple incident, that is backed by an incredibly powerful story can shape the entire direction of your lives here.\u00a0\u00a0This one is very simple.\u00a0\u00a0It is a fear of engagement. It is where you will stop and ponder, you will think then overthink, then you will freeze and have to build yourself up to jump.\u00a0\u00a0What happened that caused it to start?\u201d\u00a0\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

I tried to focus. I knew what it was related to but the exact event I could not place.\u00a0\u00a0Then suddenly it hit me and I knew, I just knew what it was.\u00a0\u00a0I remembered my stepfather mentioning it.<\/p>\n

\u201cI belly flopped.\u201d\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Paimon :<\/strong> “Yes you did and it left an impression on you, one that never healed and now every time you go to jump, even though you have the skill and the ability you freeze. You freeze and think, then overthink and have to build yourself up.\u00a0\u00a0It is something that stagnates you and it is what you think is holding you back.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Though like most things, I would not be so quick to condemn it.\u00a0\u00a0For you see these qualities in you, they are not horrible or wrong.\u00a0\u00a0You do obsess and delve into the depths of things looking to understand them.\u00a0\u00a0You explore thoughts, ideas and the world around you with incredible depth and curiosity.\u00a0\u00a0This is one of your greatest strengths and it is what has led you to uncover everything that you have and it is what drives you to continue to uncover more.\u00a0\u00a0What most people see as work you see as pleasurable.\u00a0\u00a0What would drive most people insane, you take on with delight and excitement.\u00a0\u00a0Was it the event that caused the behaviour or was the behaviour already there? Was it something that has always been, even from the time before, even from the time before this life?\u00a0How much is caused by these mere 80 years you dwell here, and how much comes from the past and who you are at your core?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

I took a moment and pondered his words.<\/p>\n

Paimon :<\/strong> \u201cI want you to come with me.\u00a0\u00a0I need to show you something.\u00a0\u00a0I need to show you the real block that is inside of you, not the one that you think is inside of you.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Stuck on Camels\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

\"Camels\"
Camels<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

He stood and began walking, I followed him.\u00a0\u00a0We left the throne room and journeyed to another part of the palace.\u00a0\u00a0We entered the area where there were the Camels.\u00a0\u00a0He had servant demons prepare his Camel.\u00a0\u00a0I noticed that there were two of them.<\/p>\n

Me :<\/strong> \u201cAm I riding too?\u201d\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Paimon :<\/strong> \u201cYes\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Me :<\/strong> \u201cI have never ridden a Camel before.\u201d\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Paimon :<\/strong> \u201cNot in this body\u201d.<\/em> He smiled at me as I nervously walked over to the Camel.<\/p>\n

I took a moment to pet him and stroke his fur.\u00a0\u00a0He made a sound that made me laugh.\u00a0\u00a0Paimon had already mounted his Camel and I admit getting up on mine was a fiasco.\u00a0\u00a0My foot got stuck at one point and jammed. My foot stuck through the stirrup and there I was jumping on one foot trying to balance and get my foot unstuck without falling over.\u00a0\u00a0After bouncing around for a moment I just burst out laughing at the ridiculousness of it all.\u00a0\u00a0There I was, my foot stuck trying to get on this massive beast so I could go to the place Paimon wanted to show me.\u00a0\u00a0I was suppose be learning about confidence and my foot was stuck.\u00a0\u00a0It pretty much summed up where I was.\u00a0\u00a0Grand opportunity before me, amazing experience coming and there I was stuck and flopping around like a goof,\u00a0\u00a0just hopping on one foot trying to get unstuck while everyone watched.\u00a0\u00a0It is a good thing I can laugh at myself and really don\u2019t take myself too seriously.<\/p>\n

It was something I learned from my uncle.\u00a0\u00a0I remember him telling me that no one can laugh at you if you laugh first.\u00a0\u00a0I honestly think that that single piece of advice helped me overcome the first level of this.\u00a0\u00a0When I embraced that philosophy I suddenly was able to do more things.\u00a0\u00a0I laughed at all my blunders and I found that people liked me because I was able to make them laugh.\u00a0\u00a0It was something my uncle was known for and why so many people attended his celebration of life.\u00a0\u00a0He could make people laugh.\u00a0\u00a0It is one of my strengths, not only being able to laugh at myself but also make others laugh and make them feel comfortable.\u00a0\u00a0It helped me to really embrace myself and yes I still feel fear at times, but I do it anyway, because all they can do is laugh and make fun of me.\u00a0\u00a0But if I am already laughing then they just look foolish.\u00a0\u00a0I also realized that every moment that could have been horrifying was actually incredibly bonding with the person I was with.\u00a0\u00a0It formed friendship.\u00a0\u00a0You have to risk looking foolish to have great friends and those friends who I have been the most foolish around are the best friends I have had.<\/p>\n

Paimon came over \u201c Do you need some assistance?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

I laughed \u201cYes, I seem to be stuck.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

He grabbed me and hoisted me up.\u00a0\u00a0I thanked him then settled into the saddle and took a moment to look around. Ok yes I had never ridden a Camel here before but there was something so familiar about this. I had ridden horses before so I was ready, and I was actually very excited about where we were going to go and what he was going to show me.<\/p>\n

\u201cWhere are we going?\u201d<\/em> I asked<\/p>\n

\u201cYou will see,\u201d<\/em>\u00a0\u00a0was all he said as we journeyed into the blazing sun.<\/p>\n

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To Be Continued….Here<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n

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