meditating with our own crystals
Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2017 9:10 am
As excited as I was to buy the crystals from the S&S store - and as much as I tend to belittle my own abilities - I seemed to be getting the message to not buy any more items or spells. Instead I am being nudged to pick out/create my own tools instead of being dependent on something else.
I really wanted to feel those energies, but, with work perhaps I can get there myself with the help of my lowborn and any others who come along.
Besides, I have many hands-on exercises already that I can work on.
I found myself filling my cart then abandoning it, worried about my finances and medical bills, shopping around for (affordable) pretty jewelry pieces or wands, or looking at my own jewelry supplies ... I think I'd rather invest in the companion Akelta finds for me, and buy or make a piece that feels meaningful to me as a focus point.
I had a bonding ritual service done through a BOTP seller ( I guess I can't post names here), and without having mentioned this idea to her or to anyone at all, considering I was pretty much ready to buy from S&S ... I got the writeup today and I was given the message from my lowborn directly - "stop buying things and we will work on your skills together," which confirmed the nagging feeling I'd been having.
It's great that S&S offers many tools, but I had let my confidence in myself go way too low and my dependence on others go way too high. S wants me to stop doubting myself so much and really grasp my potential.
Like SH's alternate pathways, it's not that I don't *need* the Goety Crystal, it's just that S will help me find a different path to achieving the same goal for instance.
This means too that I can pick out something special like an offering of special jewelry or whatever since I usually do bind-to-spirit; I can share something special with S.
I really wanted to feel those energies, but, with work perhaps I can get there myself with the help of my lowborn and any others who come along.
Besides, I have many hands-on exercises already that I can work on.
I found myself filling my cart then abandoning it, worried about my finances and medical bills, shopping around for (affordable) pretty jewelry pieces or wands, or looking at my own jewelry supplies ... I think I'd rather invest in the companion Akelta finds for me, and buy or make a piece that feels meaningful to me as a focus point.
I had a bonding ritual service done through a BOTP seller ( I guess I can't post names here), and without having mentioned this idea to her or to anyone at all, considering I was pretty much ready to buy from S&S ... I got the writeup today and I was given the message from my lowborn directly - "stop buying things and we will work on your skills together," which confirmed the nagging feeling I'd been having.
It's great that S&S offers many tools, but I had let my confidence in myself go way too low and my dependence on others go way too high. S wants me to stop doubting myself so much and really grasp my potential.
Like SH's alternate pathways, it's not that I don't *need* the Goety Crystal, it's just that S will help me find a different path to achieving the same goal for instance.
This means too that I can pick out something special like an offering of special jewelry or whatever since I usually do bind-to-spirit; I can share something special with S.